Bar Attender-Oh, hey jack, nice to see you man! Jack - hey..how r u doing B.A- as rational as usual man..as solid as a mind.u know me.. J- yeah..admirable. keep it up! B.A- … J-…. B.A-- so..wot am i filling up for ya? J- aghh.i dunno..the usual? B.A-- huhuhuh! ??? usual? Dude! U got no usual! J- shut up asshole..just give me anyting u got..anything s gonna taste like soda pop anyway.. B.A-- !!... u re already high again, aint you? -… B.A-- why are you doing this to urself jack? I mean, you are smart… not uglier than shrek…got a job..got a life, for god’s sake! U got a future man..u got a brain…and you got ME!!.. plus, u got a soul… - mindy, do u mind just killing my thirst, brother? Please? B.A- (…) here. Have some coke. It s got caffeine in it…it’s harmful, enjoy it!! - yea, thanks, i dunno wot i’d do without u. B.A--… -… B.A- wot is it? - wot is wot? B.A- nea, dont give me that now..how long for have I known you? 26 years? - (smiles)… B.A- and i ve always helped you…shed the light upon your way…remember? - this is not something your help would work mindy. Just never mind, let go..ok? B.A-well, no! Not okay. Not at all. This is not kool man. - the thing is..i am so lost and dont really think i ‘ll ever find a way out this time… B.A- you will. We will.. we always have jack. And i am not leaving you alone on this one. - … B.A- you know…i dont even need you to say one word about this. I already know what s going on here. -… I don’t really wanna talk about th- B.A- let it go. You have to… you asked for the truth…and she told ya. U are not blaming her, rite?? - blame her?? No… how can I ever?? B.A- good. Cuz you cant. You did this to yourself. You asked for this. - how about a refill mindy? And something liquor this time.. You really caused my mood fly away here. B.A- huh! Are you even listening to me jack? - yeah, jack would do good, with ice, mindy. Thanks. B.A-! fuck you!..(fills the scotch) - … B.A- go on. Kill me. It s totally okay. Kill your mind. For how long do you think you can hold on in this cruel world only by following your stupid heart, huh? I am your saver, I am your wiseman, here. But go ahead.. drug yourself, keep drinking.. kill me. Damage me. Do it jack. Be my guest! - mind, you are such a pain in the ass sometimes…please stop. B.A- no, I wont stop. I ll keep telling you about the real world, which you don’t seem to be aware of, until you open your fucking eyes, see the truth and pull yourself together! - there is no chance that I ll manage that, ever. B.A- agh! You are pathetic! And she’s right about one thing for sure; you really are one big drama queen. - is there a place on the Earth where I can escape from your grumbling? B.A- (smiles) look…dude..we have to get over this..dont you see? It’s over. O-v-e-r. And you have been expecting this…she’s been honest with you. You must be the one person to know that hearts can change and people don’t have no word to say over this. Besides, you have given her enough hard time already. - umm..are you trying to make me feel worse, mind?? B.A- I am trying to make you wake up! You know, show must go on?? - show is over. Game is over. Cant believer I ve been so delusional about all this. B.A- this is not a surprise. You ve always been a day-dreamer. That s why you cant grow up. What a shame! You and i..we could be living a normal life with normal concerns like all other normal people around. You just kept resisting being normal jack. - this is the way I am. You know that. B.A- yeah, but you never tried, either. -try? B.A- to change… to step up in the real world… to join others and become a part of the crowd… - why the hell would I wanna be a part of the crowd??? B.A- (smiles) come on jack.. you envy them… that s why you hate being yourself so much… being an outcast aint no cool anymore.. - whatever.. B.A- whatever…is this the best line you can come up with mr. song writer! - I don’t know anything, anymore, mind. I just…I don’t even feel like I am me anymore. She’s been such an elementary part of me for all these years and… I ve always liked to think that she feels the same way I do…and- B.A- OK, STOP! You are being awkward. I just don’t understand you man! I mean…what the fuck were you expecting?? … that she’d keep you within all along and open her arms every fucking random time you wanna get in touch with her? Do you think this is fair for her? - fair? Nothing is fair here. B.A- you are mistaken my friend. She’s forgiven you for every single shit you did. She was okay with keeping you as a trustworthy friend of hers…which, certainly, seems to be a fair deal to me - I don’t wanna be her friend. Cant be. I just wanted to- B.A- don’t say that. She might read this…and you ve given her enough headache already. - nea, she wont bother. I am over for her, she’s way over me. B.A- fine. Still..dont say that. She doesn’t have no rooms for you in her heart. Sold out! She’s in love with someone else, man. You do know that. Couldn’t you just be happy about this and be there for her when she needed a hand? That was the least you could do for the sake of your love for her.. - (smiles bitterly)…funny thing that she probably listened to all those songs I wrote for her and felt only sorry for me…man! B.A- … - liquor me!! Come on! B.A- (another cup filled.) - man, I still cannot believe this is happening…it s like…a bad..a bad..dream and like I ll wake up and …and we ll go on like…pff!! B.A- jack. You cut yourself loose off her. She wont never be back. Gone. Poooh!(blows the air) just like that. And, my good friend, you did ask her to do that. I was there. - it hurts, mind. B.A- I know. - how am I supposed to stand up and walk away now? B.A- don’t say that… - I am so stuck, man. So locked up. Paralyzed. Ignorant. Why man?! Why would she be so into me for so long, then? Why did she feel so bad when I told her how much I love her the last time??? B.A- she explained that to you..to..us… she’s seen you as a friend. - yeah, she did. B.A-… - we re through, rite? There is no fucking way. B.A- (…) -(….) B.A-sorry jack. - it’s cruel world, huh? B.A- …we’re just living in it. - I miss her so much… B.A-…I know you do. -… B.A- come on. Let’s get you home… - she’s there rite now. Watching me. I know that. Just wont let me see that she’s around. B.A- I don’t blame her… I’d do the same. Come on, you can use some sleep… - I don’t think I ll ever manage to leave it behind. B.A- well..(…) then don’t. keep it within. We’re in this together. We’ll live. I ll help you. - thank you, man. Means a lot. B.A- (…) lets go. -… |
